I was feeling so lost the other night, and Googled “How to be a better single mom”…. I found you…
There are days I question whether sharing myself with the world so intimately on Sex Lies and Bacon is worth it. As a single mom, I’ve been criticized many times by family, strangers, and religious freaks for what I’ve written here. The raw and graphic nature of it all makes most people uncomfortable. But there are also times it inspires people, and that’s why I blog.
Inspiration is everywhere. Sometimes you just have to Google to find it.
The universe works in mysterious ways, weaving each of our paths closer or farther away from one another. I think the thing I love most about the Internet is its ability to put me in front of someone I would never get the chance to cross paths with in my day to day life.
Sometimes the people I meet change my life. Sometimes it’s the other way around.
I woke up this morning to an email from a new reader who lives in Idaho, a place I’ve never thought about or planned to visit. This woman is a single mom with struggles just like me.
You have brought out so many of the truths I feel but couldn’t ever voice or say to my support system as an angry and scared single mother.
It’s not easy living my life in the public eye, even if that public eye only sees me through a computer screen. I’ve come a long way as a single mom, but I’ve also made a lot of mistakes. You’ve read every one of them. It takes a lot of courage to be as open and real as I am here, yet I’ve done it, week after week, for the last two and a half years of my life.
I didn’t start blogging to become famous or make money. I started blogging because I have a gift that I wanted to share with the world. At the time, I also felt like I had no where to vent without judgement. Blogging seemed the easiest way to do so. I’ve always been able to say things with my writing that most people can’t express. Feelings are often hard to put into words, but for me it’s always come easy. I sit down at my laptop and they pour out of me in a way that people can relate to.
On a really good day, my words will reach out and touch you.
I laugh here. I cry here. I get mad here. And the best part of it all is that my readers laugh, cry, and scream right along with me. Every time I get an email from a fan, I am reminded that I’m not alone on my journey, even though there are times I feel like I am. None of us are ever really alone unless we want to be.
Thank you for your honest look at the experience of heart break and divorce and now trying to just pick the shattered pieces up and be a mother with a purpose to your child’s life and to your wants and needs as a fierce female who is single but not broken..
Most days I don’t feel fierce. Most days I feel fucked up and broken, but I keep moving forward with the hopes that someday I will be the complete person I once was. Most days it is my fans who inspire me to do so with their comments, tweets, and emails. I could never thank you enough for being the unshattered mirror I now view myself in.
You inspire me and I have my planner out for my son and I, and although not perfect I am gonna try and build the foundation that is needed to move forward…
And that’s why I blog.