Two years ago I ordered Chinese food during a really shit-tastic time in my life. For some odd reason Chicken with Broccoli comforts me.
When I opened up my fortune cookie at the end of my meal, this is what it said:
“Before you can see the light you have to deal with the darkness.”
I carried that fortune with me everywhere I went for weeks, while I worked my way out one of the darker times of my life. There were a lot of wrongs to right and a bunch of problems I’d created for myself to fix.
Eventually, when I felt I no longer needed the reminder, I placed the fortune in a drawer and forgot all about it – until I came across it while cleaning today.
The last few weeks have been pretty shitty for me. To say I’ve had a lot to deal with is an understatement – hence the lack of posts here.
Apparently someone out there in the Universe believes me to be strong enough to handle it all, and so far they’ve been right.
In fact, as I sit here today typing away to you on my laptop I feel stronger than I ever have in my life.
It’s as if I’ve finally faced every one of my demons and there’s nothing left to fear.
The past is finally the past, and it can’t hurt me anymore.
It was impossible for me to comprehend why so many emotionally & mentally draining things were being thrown at me all at once the last few weeks, but as I stand on the other side of the darkness I get it now.
Sure each one of them broke me down, but those shitty/stressful/depressing situations also gave me the opportunity to build myself back up even stronger than I was before.
Good thing I remembered I’m the type of woman that takes an opportunity and runs with it.
Turns out the direction I decided to run brought me back into the light.
I’ve never been more proud of myself.
I’ve never been more in love with myself.
I’ve never felt more free.