I had a really shitty few days last week that threw me into an emotional downward spiral this weekend.
Monday I just felt lonely and off, which was probably triggered by being somewhat rejected by that dating show I applied for back in March and being blown-off by someone I care for Sunday night. Tuesday I got my period which was probably the real reason I was blue Monday. Wednesday I had an insanely stressful workday, after which my ex decided to berate me via text message. Thursday was no picnic in the park either, though it was a welcomed break to my chaotic Wednesday. Once Friday arrived I was emotionally spent so I decided to relax and read a book, only reading “Fifty Shades of Grey” left me a blubbering mess instead of calm.
I related WAY too much to that book. Not with the red room of pain part, or the being chained into sexual submission part, but with the falling in love with someone who had their own demons and warned me they were not the right man for me because they could never give me what I need part.
After drowning in my own sorrows and thoughts Saturday, I decided to start wiping my slate clean on Sunday for a fresh start today.
I cleaned out my closet. I cleaned up my laptop. I made a new meal and exercise plan to get back into nurturing my body so I can start feeling good about myself physically again. I switched out some old dreams on my vision board for new ones that better suit my new attitude. I made amends, tied up loose ends and removed things from my mind and my home that might trigger thoughts that could suck me back into the negativity that consumed me last week.
Today I woke up ready to move forward, grateful for a new week with a new beginning.
Somewhere around 2pm I got a DM from Diet Coke on Twitter that said the following:
“You won 2 tix to Florence & The Machine at Radio City tomorrow! Send your full name ASAP to pick up your tix… tomorrow.”
And that’s when I remembered that at some point in between tears and tissues Saturday I stumbled across this tweet from Diet Coke on my timeline:
“Hey #NYC! RT if you wanna see @Flo_Tweet at Radio City Music Hall on 5/8 & you may get 2 tix. SOLD OUT concert w @FuseTv”
So I hit the RT button just for kicks, never really thinking I’d win.
Turns out I did and tomorrow I’ll be drinking Rum & Diet Coke while singing my heart out at Radio City Music Hall.
Last night my friend Sheba texted me the following:
“Once in a while we feel really sucky… and then we move forward. We’re not better or worse, just in a different place than we were.”
Here’s to moving forward, and winning some kickass concert tickets in the process!
Leave all your love and your longing behind…
You can’t carry it with you if you want to survive.